CHANGE OF HEART

It happens to us when with something which we seem to be very sure of suddenly isn’t anymore. Not by its own fault but by something happening to us. It’s like putting on a favorite dress we’ve had for several years and suddenly finding out that it doesn’t fit anymore. Of course we may have gained in weight over the years but still the realization that we can’t wear the dress anymore like we’ve been used to is like a huge rock hitting us right smack on our unbelieving head.

We bond with things and of course people the latter giving birth to relationships. Without further ado, let’s zero down on friends and friendships.

Everybody has a best friend, one or several. All through our life friends abound and then after sifting through the sea of faces, personalities, characters coming through --one or two get to stand out above the rest. The bond and bonding tightens up even more. The other person may in a gradual process over a period of time endear himself or herself making the friendship stronger. It works both ways.

The friendship grows and entrenches itself resolutely through our days and life creating its own permanent niche therein. Permanent seems to be the right word cuz we couldn’t possibly even think of anything that might happen to separate or break it apart. That’s so improbable. Preposterous! So days turn into weeks into months into years and we become even surer through it all.

Then it happens.

Suddenly a feeling, a foreboding sense of ‘losing’ something, settles down quietly -- causing an unexplainable distance which appears to be steadily widening, increasing, and larger with every passing day. Despite frantic efforts to bring matters back to its original shape, the distance just seems to get wider even more. We then begin to wonder.

Here’s an old song by Jim Brickman, songwriter, singer, and pianist. Maybe some answers can be found in it.
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CHANGE OF HEART

I feel that I’m at a crossroads
I don’t know which way to go
You say that I am changing
Into someone that you don’t know
Who I am and who I’ll be
Is locked inside, inside of me
And if I follow my heart
Will you still be my friend?
If we break apart
How do I make, how will you take
My change of heart
For years you have been my best friend
I thought that would always be
You know that I just can’t pretend
It’s written all over me
‘Cuz where I’ll go and what I’ll do
I just can’t see my life without you
If I follow my heart
Will you still be my friend?
If we break apart
How do I make, how will you take
My change of heart
Moving on is gonna take sometime
When I’m gone
You might have a change of mind
Gotta take a chance
No matter what I find
No matter how far I travel
I think of you as home
It’s not about finding someone else
It’s all about being alone
‘Cuz who I am and who I’ll be
Is locked inside, inside of me
‘Cuz if I follow my heart
Will you still be my friend?
If we break apart
How do I make, how will you take
My change of heart
How will you take
My change of heart

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posted on Tuesday, July 10, 2007 11:59 AM